Examples:
Age matters. (It doesn't...this is my most difficult area tho) ((do not ask me my age)) (((i mean it))) Thinking of Ric here....sshhhh.
College education/certification/master's degrees make me more worthwhile. (REALLY?? no.) ((I know each one of my student's names, I know their personalities and what they struggle with, and I don't have to be the one to send them to the principals office.))
My grandfather and all of his stuff define me. Nuh uh....Let me clarify quickly...He died, we cleaned out his beloved farm, sold everything that he loved, then leveled the house and some buildings. All of this deeply affected me....I am so attached to the people I love. Very hard to watch something that you have cherished for *0 years be ripped to pieces. Thinking of the Alabama folks here.
The weather has the power to push me into a pit of mud where I'm stuck in the middle and cannot get out. If I move I go deeper into the blackness. (Sunshine speaks life to me, I can feel it recharging me like a battery cell..still struggling with this one...this is where I know I need to be around the people I love most). Esp. the ones who make me cry/laugh till it hurts. Thinking of you know who you are here!
Where is God in all of this?? Well...silent to me. Because that's where I put him. Finally started feeling his pursuit of me tho the week before Easter. Watching the Passion of the Christ...thinking about what he's done for me, it was hard for me to watch and think of all my selfishness. He gave everything so I could be with Him. I regret my *insert stupidness here*....but I don't have time to maintain these regrets...so off I go to live and love...Thinking of you here. :-)
Can anyone relate to this?
You are loved, Sharla
almost exactally the same for me only with different things! very encouraging! thank you for this today! love you greatly!
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Oh My Goodness. Can I tell you Sharla that your writings today were as though they were the very words in my head being written by you...I mean every word. I tell people all the time that I think I have "seasonal depression". Not really sure if that is even a real thing, but I am convinced that happiness naturally falls on me and my day when the sun is out. I mean who is in a bad mood when it's sunny. But watch out when its gloomy, cold or rainy, suddenly I feel the devil himself walking beside me telling me about all the stuff that's just not right in my life.
ReplyDeleteI get attached to people and the way life is way too easy and then when someone or something disrupts it I again feel satan telling me why I am not happy and how the change will not be good. It's funny though when I look back at some of those changes I find myself saying "that was exactly what should have happened". I am loyal to a fault and expect the same from everyone...and I mean everyone. When they are not, you guessed it, the evil one tells me that I should have never trusted to begin with.
Age, well I go up and down with that one. One day I was speaking with a woman I had never met before and she told me of a friend of hers that died at the age of 51 from cancer. This woman was getting ready to celebrate 60. She said her friends ask her if she would get depressed on that day. She said no way. It is a privilege to age. My 51 year old friend would love to be turning 60. ;) That definitely turned my perspective around...although I will tell you, depending on the day and who is around I don't always remember that story.
Ok so I have taken over your blog for the day...sorry. I am struggling with contentment and yet I have so much to be content with.
Thanks for helping me today without even knowing it.
Much Love,
Karen
Thank you for your honesty. God helps us grow in spite of ourselves. And He can help others grow through us and the stresses we find ourselves in. "This is the stuff...that drives me crazy!" that just popped into my head. :)
ReplyDeleteI love this quote from an author, Jan Karon: We know that nothing grows on the high mountain peaks, fertility lies in the valleys.
If you are in the valley, look up! The sun is shining just over that next hill...and if you're old, what am I? :)
You are lovely and loved...
I am choking back the tears at work reading this...I can relate. Duh......can't we always? I have lived in the pit of discontentment for too long, feel like I am always complaining or whining about something...the weather, Bolivar..my lack of friends and church here, filling out 10,000 job applications and so on. Feel like i am always busying my mind with how can i control things, fix things or do this or that to make myself better...in the eyes of the world when God is calling me to delight myself in Him and who he is created me to be in this season of life. Finally pulled out a beth moore study I had on the shelf and started doing it the other day, loved this quote by her..."Right in this moment let Jesus look you straight in the eyes and tell you that He knows who you are and who He wants to make you. That's the only way you and I will ever discover the One who calls us and the one we were born to be." OK enough..love you can't wait to be living life together again in the same town so soon. I am honored to call you my best friend, you are so special to me.
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